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My Musical Soulmates: Etta James and Whitney Houston

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Words cannot describe how sad I am at the news of first Etta James passing and then 3 weeks later the passing of Whitney Houston. My heart breaks at the loss of these two incredible, talented, and beautiful women!  I love these women, their music, their stories. Rest in peace Etta and Whitney, you blessed this world with a gift no one ever will be able match. You inspired me to live big, love great, and push forward through all life’s trials and tribulations! You will both be missed and always loved. Rest in peace. 

 

 

H-E-Double Hockey Sticks

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My life, thus far, has unquestionably panned out to be entirely different than I ever expected it to be.

Man oh man, when I was just 12 years old, quickly approaching my 13 birthday, I would think about how great being a teenager would be, how much fun it would be to grow up, and how awesome it would be make new friends. Well, I am now 20 years old, quickly approaching my 21st birthday, and life has definitely been fun, filled with new friends, and teenagehood was actually not to horrible. Of course there were the unexpected bumps and bruises that came along the way. Yeah, people expect their life to be a certain way and to go along a precise path, but the bumps and bruises we get traveling down those paths are rarely expected. It is inevitable that we all have unexpected good and/or bad things show up in the middle of our paths, it’s just life.

Honestly, I have no idea what I am continuing to write about. I started writing about something that was on my mind and as I continued to write I think I switched gears and started writing to make me look good and attract readers or whatever. Pssh….NO BRIELLE! NO BRIELLE! I am glad I am catching my self. I am glad I writing down what I am thinking through my head. This has always been my problem, thinking ALL THE STINKIN TIME but never talking about it whether with my self or with someone else. I have seriously bottled up so much stuff- good stuff, bad stuff, and just stuff that I have no idea if it’s good or bad.

So here I am confusing the H-E-DOUBLE HOCKEY STICKS of whoever is reading this. But you know I am ok with that. I am not here to impress anyone. I am here to just get things off my chest, my heart, my head, and my life. So I guess welcome to my pretty screwy, confusing, nonsense of a blog. J But as far as what I was talking about above I am sure I will kick back into talking about that someday, but just not today. J I will leave you with a quote that kind of links what I was originally talking about and what I finished with.

“I am aware that I am less than some people prefer me to be, but most people are unaware that I am so much more than what they see.”  – aysayako || tumblr

 

Scratching…

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Well, 2011 has seemed to settle in quickly, it is already March and spring is in the air. I am starting to roll the windows down on my drives to and from work. My feet are breathing easier in my choice of airy flats and flip flops instead of my winter loafers. And excitement, adventure, and the sense of new beginnings are starting to pump through my veins again. There is something about winter that just bogs me down and makes me feel blah….It has definitely been a rough winter for me. Then again the past year and half have been quite the intense time.

Pause for a moment….let me say this….

I am not here to complain about my life in any way, but rather just to put my experiences, feelings, emotions, thoughts, and everything else on the table. I am in no way saying that any of what I write is right or wrong, true or false, proper or improper, necessary or unnecessary. I am just putting them on the table because what I am feeling, whether its correct or incorrect, is how I felt at the time, its how I reacted at the time, it’s the real thoughts that crossed my mind at the time, it is my perception of the experience I went through. So I am just here to be honest. Not really for you all, but more for myself. I have bottled up so much of my life, whether that is good or bad I have not a clue. So with all that being said I am sorry if I offend any one, if I confuse any of you, if I hurt any of you, if I do anything to any of you due to this blog. I am just here writing to figure things out. If you have a dilemma with a post or my entire blog, talk to me about it and if you can’t do that then just don’t read my blog…simple as that. : )

…now back to what I was originally saying.

The past year and a half has been intense, to say the least. I have lost a lot of people, things, places, etc. I have realized I have no idea how I tick, how I function, what I love, what I need, what I want, who I need, and really who I am. I have just scratched the surface in figuring me out. I have learned a few of things about my self…. 1. I want to move away.   2. I love trying new foods, so boo yeah to everyone who thought I was overly picky! Except I still hate broccoli. 3. I am horrible at letting go of people, places, things etc. 4. I am a Belieber!!! Woot Woot for Justin Bieber! 5. I have a ton of resentment; I will go into that in another post. So yeah….scratching….scratching….eventually I will start digging….and eventually I will start figuring out the simplest of things to the most complicated of things.